You can be almost anything

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 06:25:47 GMT

ok, I figured it's time to get a new journal... why? because I fucking can.

so, add it.

imfreddykrueger

oh yeah.

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 00:05:20 GMT

xonyourknees@hotmail.com
-or-
253$315$4441.

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 00:03:00 GMT

ok, so ive been working like everyday for the last two weeks. thats cool.
all i know that my next paycheck will be a big one.

today i went to buy tabs for my car (something i should have done in august.)
they didnt cost as much as i was expecting, so i went to best buy.
i probably spent too much money there, but who cares?
i bought Bowling for Columbine (only $10!)
and South Park: Season 3. I already have season 4, so i'm just going to work my way down.
now i'm going to sit on my ass, play Grand Theft Auto, and watch South Park all day long unless someone calls me, and asks me to hang out.

oh yeah.
My AIM doesnt feel like working anymore, so if you want to get ahold of me, you can call me, text me, shoot me an email, message me on myspace, or you can come surprise me at work and/or home.

the end.

ps. i wish i had hbo.

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 06:29:13 GMT

they took mai joooorb!

hahaha.

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 18:24:22 GMT

my house is flooding. cool.

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 19:52:43 GMT

i love you.

Dear Special Someone,

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 08:19:29 GMT

leaving you there at the hospital had me one second away from tears.
i cannot stand to see you like that.
no smiles, no joy.
please get better, and come home soon.
i love you.
<3

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 07:52:47 GMT

getting $500 dollars every two weeks can have its advantages....

Denny's anyone?

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 06:42:51 GMT

dear world,
i'm straight edge now.
love, benn.

EDIT: FOR THE FIRST TIME.

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 00:11:14 GMT

sis-
last night i stayed up talkin to claire and marissa about how awesome you are, and how much we love you.
you mean more to us than you think.
dont give up.
we're all here for you.

love, bro.

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 22:57:15 GMT

being keyholder is cool.
ive got way more money, and way more responsibility.
yesterday i went to jeanettes. good times.

OH! and i picked up the new Dead To Fall record.
its awesome, if you have the chance to pick it up, or download it, you wont be sorry.

a little update.

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 09:53:42 GMT

i've decided to update all of you.
1. because i'm bored. and
2. because i have news thats actually important.

things have been going pretty good lately. ive been working almost everyday for the past 4 weeks, so i'm sorry to everyone i havent seen lately.
things with jeanette are wonderful.
i just got Rollercoaster Tycoon 3, so ive been playing that a lot lately.
i went to see Saw the night it came out, and its amazing. if you havent seen it, see it.
ummmm
i got promoted to keyholder at work. which is awesome, that means more hours and a raise. (that was my important news.)
i'm stoked for 100 Demons on monday.
but, theres something thats been bothering me lately. i have this friend, and she hasnt been feeling that great, and i just want her to know that i love her very much, she's one of my best friends and i'd do anything to cheer her up.

well anyway, come visit me at work. i'll be there, more than likely.

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 07:39:42 GMT

the show tonight was fun.
Misery Signals was awesome
Zao was awesome
Everytime I Die was awesome
and what i saw of Dillinger was awesome.

but, tonight just wasn't my night.
i fell down about 4 times, twisted my wrist, and sprained my ankle.
but all in all, i had a great time.
after the show i went to jeanettes and iced my ankle, the swelling went down after awhile, but it still hurts.

anyway, thats it.

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 06:00:54 GMT

alright, so i redid my journal layout and everything.
maybe that will motivate me to start writing in it again.

a quick update:
work has been great, i'm probably getting a promotion here pretty soon. which will be good, so i can finally stop living paycheck to paycheck.
things with jeanette are wonderful, my feelings grow stronger for her everyday.

ive been sick for almost 2 weeks, it sucks. i was sick at Unearth, so we left early.
i hope i'll be good for Dillinger on friday.

anyway, i dont have anything cool to write about.

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 10:42:51 GMT

THE BLACK DAHLIA MURDER OWNS YOU ALL.
nuff said.

ps. i might start writing in this thing again, who knows?

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 06:01:22 GMT

1. My full name is Benjamin Ryan Mongrain

2. i take a lot of things for granted that i really shouldnt.

3. i'm intimidated by a lot of people

4. i really want people to like me

5. im perfectly happy with staying home all the time and watching movies

6. i used to read a lot, but not so much anymore, its hard to find the time.

7. i love eating at Taco Del Mar

8. i get upset whenever i get home and i dont have any new e-mail.

9. im really really selfish, but i try to hide it as much as possible

10. some years ago i had an MRI done because i got headaches all of the time.

11. i would die for my friends

12. i really dont keep any secrets

13. i criticize everything

14. i dont like living with my dad, and i wish i still lived at my moms house

15. im scared of growing up

16. i dont really have any enemies

17. in past relationships, i always felt like i was the only one who gave a shit.

18. god dammit, i like to fucking cuss. bitch.

19. i light up... my Nag Champa insence, because it smells soooo good.

20. people tell me i'm really good at hugging

21. at night, i get very lonely

22. sometimes, i judge people on their musical tastes... well, more than sometimes

23. i used to be obsessed with Roller Coasters, and i wanted to design them for a living

24. im terrified of heartbreak.

25. i play Madden 2005 everyday

26. i used to be into Street Punk and Oi... i still listen to some of it occasionally.

27. i'm still not sure if i ever want to get married or have children

28. i dont like change.

29. im drawn to the darker, more evil side of life.

30. i get worried very very easily.

31. i'm not a relgious person, and i get extremely offended when people judge me because of that or try to change my beliefs.

32. i love to be scared

33. i get attached very easily

34. i am anti-war

35. im very touchy feely.

36. i used to work at Subway

37. ive been working at Hot Topic for almost a year.

38. my teeth are perfectly straight, and ive never needed braces.

39. i like sex, but only because i like to make my partner feel good.

40. i dye my hair black

41. i think the tough-guy trend in hardcore are retarded.

42. i try not to put up with anyones shit

43. i get my feelings hurt easily

44. i dont have very much self-confidence

45. i have trouble keeping friends sometimes

46. but, i love the friends i have now with all of my heart. i dont plan on letting them go.

47. i like taking back sunday.

48. i have a twisted, sometimes sick sense of humor.

49. I graduated from highschool last year.

50. i need a haircut

51. i dont deserve the gorgeous girl that i get to call my girlfriend.

52. the weekends are my favorite time of week, because its the only time i can really spend a lot of time with jeanette.

53.i like to look nice. but sometimes i get lazy

54. actually, i'm always really lazy.

55. i love kisses

56. i just saw on the news that some guy rubbed his shit all over some produce at safeway and i laughed my ass off.

57. i love going to shows.

58. i just recently started hardcore dancing, and i think im getting pretty good at it.

59. i love teriyaki chicken. ( THANK YOU MARISSA. )

60. i practice hardcore dancing in my living room, bringing what i like to call "the boxers mosh"

61. i am an athiest.

62. my parents divorced 6 years ago.

63. the farthest away ive been from home is Oregon

64. Ive also been to Canada, my first time being last week.

65. i pick my nose

66. i like being gross, even though, for the most part, i'm a really clean person

67. i have really hair legs, ive been thinking about shaving them lately...

68. i wear a size 12 shoe, well at least thats the size i own

69. i just got a new cell phone.

70. im a very sexual person.

71. i am anti-bush, but not very political.

72. i really like acient greek mythology and art

73. i hate it when people try too hard to be funny

74. i usually only laugh at my own jokes

75. i have one brother

76. we put my dog to sleep a couple months ago

77. i'm hella gross.

78. ive never seen Star Wars.

79. i sleep in my boxers. sometimes a tshirt if its really cold.

80. i hate my body.

81. only one person has ever seen me with my shirt off.

82. i miss a lot of my old friends.

83. i really hate my computer.

84. i could care less about a lot of people.

85. like i said, i'm selfish.

86. i really do love jeanette.

87. the last cd i bought was Comeback Kid- Turn It Around

88. i think serious hardcore crews are stupid

89. i hate the shirts that have witty sayings on them. even though i sell them to people.

90. i dont take a shower everyday.

91. i have a big variety in music that i listen to

92. im perfectly happy with where my relationship is at right now.

93. im generally a happy person

94. my favorite thing to do is lay on the floor with jeanette and watch movies.

95. my favorite drink is Vanilla Coke

96. i like to show off my girlfriend

97. one of my managers is leaving and i'm upset about it, because we've gotten to be pretty close.

98. sometimes when i take my socks off, i take one off, then i get sidetracked and forget to take off the other for awhile.

99. i used to have a grandma car. i really love my new car.

100. FUUUCK YOOOOU, IM DONE

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 21:12:12 GMT

yo d00dz, i got a new phonez.
253-315-4441

call me so i dont have to type in your number by hand, cuz i'm hella lazy.

Stolen From Derrick.

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 00:06:29 GMT

Leave your full name if you want to know what I think of you. Complete and total honesty!

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 08:24:57 GMT

i wish there was something i could do.
i wish i could be something worth living for.

maybe i'm not good enough
or maybe i'm just going about this the wrong way.

maybe i'm falling too hard, too fast.

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 23:55:41 GMT

you're the best friend i've ever had.

i love you. happy birthday.

5 people

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 00:38:43 GMT

= youre pretty cool, i guess. i'd never want to hang out with you or anything.

= youre hot, lets have sex.

= fuck you.

= we just met, and already i want to kick your ass.

= i hear youre good at making sandwiches, so make me a fucking sandwich.

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 05:46:04 GMT

so, whats up?

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 08:59:32 GMT

Rachel + Marissa + Benn= best ever.

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 08:29:21 GMT

hey guys, remember those moon shoes?
those were da bomb.

the show last night was fun.

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 19:15:40 GMT

i'm pretty much all moved into my dads house now.
theres nothing to do there. NOTHING.
theres no tv yet, not computer yet, no food yet.

so, if you want to hang out with me, you'll have to call me. AND PLEASE DO BEFORE I GO INSANE.

253.315.4441